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I've been a part of internet and fandom since I was a tiny kid. I was around 6 googling pictures of characters I liked from shows and movies, and I found art of it by accident. (On... deviantart- shudder!!! ) then I knew I could draw characters I liked. I was around 8 when I started making my own accounts on stuff, and then my fandom life took off lol... I've been a little infamous (and famous-ish) on various websites throughout my life, many of them now defunct. I read a lot when I was younger, wrote a lot of fanfic. Quizilla was my jam!

Maybe you read one of my many mid-puberty, hormone-driven fanfics, or saw some of my fanart or OCs that I thought were SO GOOD, or argued with me under stamps or in the depths of Yahoo Answers- where I was top contributor on a regular basis at the wise old age of 11. So that probably tells you about the quality of the spaces I spent time in...

Probably my first fandom was Vampire Knight. It was the first one that inspired (bad) OCs, had me shipping stuff, and then other anime followed shortly. Junjou Romantic (I am fudanshi trash fr) and after that I went downhill. I've seen a ton of absurd and ridiculous yaoi anime, read through countless yaoi manga, read a bunch of horror manga, but at this point I can't even name most of them. This was back when it was easy to circumvent YouTube's copyright, so I just watched them there divided into 10-minute parts. The format of "s1e2 part 6", I will never forget.

Death Note, Black Butler, Nabari No Ou, Blood+ and Junjou Romantica are up there on my list of anime, and any manga by Junji Ito. Not to be an old loser hipster, but I liked Junji Ito and Vocaloid before they were cool! Back when there was almost no fanfiction, I was writing awful, self-indulgent fics between rarepairs, or based on songs that people made theories about in comments..

So, if you read fics or looked at crappy ship art in the Vocaloid, Homestuck, Black Butler, Kingdom Hearts, Vampire Knight or Harry Potter fandom... you might've come across me. Who knows? That's the fun!!

I met my husband that way, in fact! We were both active in the fandom we met in and we wrote together for a while before we realized he'd left comments on my fanfics. Now we're married! I never even thought I'd get married, I didn't believe in love, soul mates, marriage, etc. But he's so perfect for me, and he feels that way about me. We compliment each other in the ways we're different, and in the ways that we need to be, we're so so similar.

I got out of fandom as I got older, mostly because life got in the way and also because I got too into algorithms and social media. It kind of sucked the soul out of my online life, but I've been slowly getting it back, with my husband's encouragement. He has me embracing things about myself that I was really embarrassed of in the past. My authentic self is still the weird little homebody who likes to go out for a short time, then come home and do fandom and creative stuff online.

I'm still into much of the same stuff, new things are cool too but nothing hits the spot exactly the way my initial fandoms did. I secret you get for reading this far; I haven't even played Kingdom Hearts. Someone I grew up with played the games, and introduced me to the fandom, fics, ship art and characters. I ran with that and read almost every fic in the ships I liked, and even wrote some myself- nobody could tell I hadn't played the games...